Part XL

oh well, I guess this is it. the end of the 'journey'.
tepat 3 bulan. *my first move = 28 january 2009*
tepat di post ke-40. *XL doesn't mean xtra larga duhh*



congratulations to both of you, I'm happy for it :)
awet-awet ya kak!

Part XXXIX

errr about yesterday's trip, kak Aldo said;

"akhir yang baik untuk mengakhiri liburan yang cukup panjang."

and somehow, I agree with him :)

Part XXXVIII

seharusnya gak kaya gini. months ago, things used to be better.



argh tau ah, do whatever you want, suit yourself.
oh, congratulations. my feelings says you win.
me? the opposite, of course.
all hail the new queen.

Part XXXVII

WHAT. THE. HELL. THEWHATTT?
*lemes*

Untitled

i know this sounds lame and cheesy, and i know the song is so years ago
tapi siapa yang gak nganggep lagu ini jadi soundtrack masalah gebet-menggebet?
anyway, here goes.


ketika kurasakan sudah
ada ruang dihatiku yang kau sentuh
dan ketika kusadari sudah
tak selalu indah cinta yang ada
mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti
bilaku bukan yang ingin kau miliki
salahkah ku bila
kaulah yang ada dihatiku?

adakah ku singgah dihatiku?
mungkinkah kau rindukan adaku?
adakah ku sedikit dihatimu?
bilakah ku menggangu harimu
mungkinkah kau tak ingin adaku?
adakah ku sedikit dihatimu?

bila memang ku yang harus mengerti
mengapa cintamu tak dapat kumiliki?
salahkah ku bila
kaulah yang ada dihatiku?

bila cinta kita tak kan tercipta
ku hanya sekedar ingin tuk mengerti
adakah diriku singgah dihatimu?
dan bilakah kau tau
kaulah yang ada dihatiku
kau yang ada dihatiku
adakah ku dihatimu?


jujur, gemes banget rasanya pengen nge-Bold semua kalimat, cuma nampaknya agak lebay ya
AH GILAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Part XXXV

my hands were shaking so badly!
anyway, i'm hoping you like my present :)

17

Happy Birthday to yoooooooou!



*crossing fingers*

Part XXXIV

lari pagi tadi bener-bener ngga kerasa capek
hahaha seriously, thanks!
:D

Part XXXIII

i've been reading some chat logs, about 3 or 4 months ago.
you know what? i can see the differences.

is it because you know now?
:'(

Part XXXII

from his notes.

11. Say something wise!
She Loves You


mhm. see? she loves you, dude!
who's she? haha none other than moi.

Par XXXI

gotta love yesterday's Java Jazz Festival, hehe

Part XXX

hoping your feet will get well soon AYSAP! :D

Part XXIX

argh selalu negangin kalo kaya gini.

masalahnya cuma karena gw takut salah.
iye takut kalo gini salah, gitu salah.
argh :(

Part XXVIII

today's my birthday.



well, agak meleset dari perkiraan, tapi gpp lah.
makasih ya udah ngucapin :) hehe

Part XXVII

your expression was priceless, really.
kaya anak kecil terlalu bahagia, and somehow it's cute, aw aw aw

Part XXVI

oke. sekarang. gw. takut. banget.



please someone convince me that everything will be fine :(

Part XXV

aaaarghh how did that guy know?
no, not ehm.
but someone knows about this, and that someone is no ordinary someone.
he's one of the leaders.


matikauuuuuuuuu!!!!
*starting to panic*

Part XXIV

mungkin gw gak menang, that's okay
but i'm happy to know that you won :)
selamat ya, hehe

Part XXIII

you're so cute like a polar bear doing parkour
;)

Part XXII

................
"but is there?"
--his blog, 05022009

WELL ACTUALLY THERE IS KAK, AND THAT GIRL IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES, WAITING FOR YOU TO MOVE. which is me.




God, what can i do to make you realize?

Part XXI

okaaay. okaaaay. okaaaay.


my heart beated sooooo fast after i called your name,
my hand was shaking as i talked to you,
but i'm glad that you said my cookie is not too shabby :D
so maybe plan A wasn't so bad after all, hehe

Part XX

sooo from the previous post, i've decided to make you some chocolate chip cookies!
and this time it is real.



but the trouble is, i don't know how to give those cookies to you tomorrow.
well if i can give it you by tomorrow, i hope you'll like it!

Part XIX

sooo since today is Valentine's Day, here's what i've been imagining;

i'll make you a big size, home made cupcake, i'll put some chocolate icings and your name's initial on top of it.
then i'll put it inside a blue colored box with a tiny silver ribbon on top, when it's all done, i'll send it to your house, in front of your bedroom door to be exact.
so that when you open the door, Voila! there it is :)


that will be perfect.

now then

Arctic Monkeys - Mardy Bum, has been played for 41 times.


oh wow.
:D

Part XVIII

it's a good thing to see you being nice to me today.



walaupun belom sepenuhnya kaya dulu tapi gpp lah, thanks!
oh, and goodluck to you for the work :)

Part XVII

uwooooooooo pmnya menohok cuy



mulai ga bener nih bahasanya -_-

Part XVI

is it a wrong thing that i gave you the picture?
is it so wrong that it change you like this?
is it wrong thing that i like you?



_{God, oh God please make the situation better.
i don't like this AT ALL.}

Part XV

"it's impossible to ignore you....."


what if you're the one who's ignored by him?
it feels like shit.




_{AAAAAAAAAAHHH YOU'VE CHANGED! YOU'VE CHANGED!
and i hate it.
:'((}

Part XIV

you still don't realize it, do you?



stay strong chan, stay strong.

Part XIII

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?


_{that song is officially today's soundtrack, thanks to Mente :D}

agree with Jason Mraz,

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want to do is to feel you
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

How long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
I'd tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again


If It Kills Me - Jason Mraz

Part XII

.......


well it's obvious that you've bit me.

Part XI

HEY, ARE YOU BLIND?
I'M RIGHT HERE IN FRONT OF YOU!
GAK USAH NENGOK KEMANA-MANA WOOOOOY!



man, i wish you knew how i feel about you, you dumbass.

Part X

i'm feeling lonely, and a bit melodramatic maybe?


it's obvious that i really miss you.
:'(

Part IX

antara 2 kemungkinan;

1. BEGO DAN NGGAK NYADAR

atau

2. UDAH NYADAR TAPI PURA-PURA BEGO



so which one is it?

Part VIII

SHIZNIT.


_{you really put me on a rollercoaster ride.}